Nervous

A lot of people don't know this but to be adopted i terminated my parents right, and now I'm terminating my rights as a parent ironic don't you think. lol sometimes i think i turned out just like my birth mom well its changing now. well i just wanted to say the babies are out of the hospital. They are so beautiful and I'm so happy that i was brave and smart enough to give them up i feel such a peace in my heart. that it's overwhelming. I've never once thought I'm making the wrong decision. I wanna thank you all for supporting me and reading this.

Moments

I imagine every one who has ever had a baby goes through it. I'm talking about the moments where you think your fine, then the next thing you know your crying. Your not upset just overwhelmed by the love you can have for people. I'm super overwhelmed just because i not only have twin but also a familiy that is willing to love my twins also, and me. Not because they have to like any other familiy but because the really want to. Sometimes i feel like my heart is going to explode sometimes.

October

So, since i was born in October, i ultimately think its the best month ever. That being said this is a life changing month for me. I give up my rights as a parent, i turn 20, and i put in my application for job corp. my interview for the application is tomorrow and I'm nervous. My mom is going with me for the first time. Its nice to have such a supportive mom. I love her very much even tho we don't always agree, we have bonded, and it's a bond I'm really glad we have.

Another good thing about October HALLOWEEN. I'm going to kings dominion haunt fest. but that really isn't what i wanted to talk about we have general conference. this weekend. i have a hard time focusing enough to watch or listen but i try. I'm doing better then i did in years before I'm not falling asleep like i did in years before. well ill post pics of haunt fest.