Change

I'm trying to change my life im trying to change my life. I wanna get right with my life if not for anything just to prove to my kids that i did the right thing and i am somebody. its hard tho i try and its like something happens and i remember i just gave up two beautifull babies that i made and carried and now don't get to enjoy the pleasures a mom does. then i remember back when i was little and what it was like. it was so hard i would get in trouble for no reason for something i didnt do all the time more then normal kids i would get spanked to the point i wanted to die. i remember the feeling of having my first birthday with out my mom wit my grandparents who tred but didnt replace the feeling i had from my mom leaving. i am so glad i got adoppted and her and my family have made my life the best they can. i appreciate it so much.